strange connections.......

Life, a mystery, its just like the game of sudoko, when one row is solved you will realize that the other one is messed up. But if you know the rules you will end up smoothly.

So we have God’s messengers all around us who let us know the rules……who??

The nature, messenger of God. There is a strange connection between us and the nature. It’s just that one has to patiently observe, to figure out what it is telling us. It has a message for us in every object of it.

Have you ever observed the river, which flows, through out with bothering for the huddles that come across, and reach its destination, the sea. The tress which serve selflessly, without any desire. The birds, which fly in the open sky, and tell us,to follow our heart, without bothering the consequences. Nature has a lot in store for us, and one has to comprehend it.

 What fascinates me the most is the relationship between the earth and sky. They spread the message of unconditional love. They know that they can never meet, but they don’t leave each other for a single moment. Well can you ever imagine the earth without the sky? They don’t expect anything from each other, but it seems that they have promised each other to be always together.

We just have to listen the silence, feel the nature, may be then we will know the purpose of our life, and will resolve the unresolved mystery.

happiness..............

“Happiness”, what does this really mean….well the definition of happiness or being happy changes from person to person according to their needs and desire. For a mother happiness lies in the smile of her child. For a child happiness lies in the small gifts, toffees, he come across. For some it is wealth and for some it is success and for some its fame.

Then I peeped inside me to find the answer, and I couldn’t find any. I don’t know what happiness is. It is the pain stuck within me which has masked my happiness. Is happiness the destination or the path? Should I walk on the path, or should I pursue the destination. For me happiness was your companionship, and it has left with you. Since then I have been searching for happiness in every moment of my life but what I find is a big nothing.

But then I came across the lines “happiness is like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention it will come and sit softly on your shoulder”….so I have stopped chasing happiness, and hope to see the beacon of light soon, which will show me a new meaning of happiness.

just another night.......

Lying on my bed, I was just looking at the ceiling seeing my fan rotate. I turned to my watch, it was past midnight. “Oh no not again, I don’t want another sleepless night”, thinking this I closed my eyes. But again those thoughts and memories I don’t want to recall came hunting me. I got up and gave away the idea of doing unfruitful attempts to get a sleep.

Carrying a coffee mug I went outside my small balcony, to observe, what my companion of solitude, the night, have in store for me. It was so calm, so quite. Not a single soul was awake, even the trees seemed to be in deep slumber. I felt so jealous, and asked myself, why I can’t be so lucky…..

It seemed the night was trying to speak something, but what…. Was it sympathizing my condition?

I looked at the roads…so tired and lonely… just like me. It seemed to be waiting for the dawn to break, which would bring an end to its loneliness. I wished I could just walk down those lonely roads, and just walk, trying to figure out what life want from me…

I looked up, the moon seemed to laughing at me through the clouds. But why? Was it criticizing me…, but it was also alone in the vast sky, there were no stars to accompany it. May be it knew that someday they will be twinkling with it, but may be I would be left alone, like always...

With my last sip of coffee being finished, I brought back myself to reality, from the web of my unending thoughts. I went back to my bed, waiting for the sun to rise and bring an end to yet another night…after all it’s just another night……

Rain and Me

Every one wants to be happy
nobody wants to be in pain
but you can't have a rainbow
without a rain

Gazing through the window, I was just wondering what makes rain so special for me.

 Is it the way raindrops pampers me when they kiss my face

Is it the fact that it has been a companion in every emotion of my life. I have drenched in happiness, drenched in love, drenched in sorrow.

Every time it gives me a different feeling. It has enhanced my happiness, made my love divine, and washed my sorrows.

Is it the purity of the sweet smelling wet soil, or the soothing breeze.

Is it the effort of rain to bring a connection between the sky and the earth who can never meet.

Is it the sound of the raindrops falling on silent leaves or the ripples which disturb a silent sea……..

I still just keep wondering why is rain so special to me…..

it hurts............

They Say Love is Beautiful

I say how it can be when it hurts so much……

It hurts when you don’t find the person who has taught you what love is….

It hurts when you don’t find the hand you have been holding for years……….

It hurts when you don’t find the shoulder to put your head on and let your tears  flow…

It hurts when you don’t find those eyes in which you used to forget yourself………

It hurts when you don’t find the smile which used to make your day….

It hurts when you die to hear the voice but find only silence…

It hurts when you turn behind to find you are al alone………

It hurts when you realize that nothing is left in you except an empty void……..

         There is no desire to want to love again………because now there is only the fear of ruining what I have tried so hard to build up…………